Starry Night

1:23am: lalala
i'm back in MD. i'll be here atleast until january...

cha cha cha

8:54pm: i'm a hot bitch!

2:27am: bowling=cool

also, i am good at stealing the old man's sack.

12:33am: MySpace
hit me up...

www.myspace.com/xxzephyrlovexx

ps. Brandon is my favorite tool <3

8:04pm: hey guys!

sorry i haven't updated in a while but i'm still alive! what's new you may ask? i'm living in the apartment with andi and john. i'm in love (the real thing) :) and i'm counting the days until my girl comes home! aside from that... work , school, the usual.

btw: if anyone's looking for a car i sell nissan, subaru, hyundai, chrysler, toyota, gmc, and used cars. call me 410.688.5228 and i'll totally hook you up!

Take care <3 holly

11:45pm: my first leap into adulthood.
i'm moving out! i secured an apartment. the room will be ready as of 10/1/05 but i didnt agree to move in until 11/1/05. so, if i do end up going there early (which i will) i'll only have to pay electric and water, so that's pretty sweet. who am i living with, you might ask? andi and john! hahaha that part will lose me a friendship with anyone taking tim's side in this less than civil parting, but they're friendships i'm better off without.

so... this means:

NO MORE CURFEW NO MORE PARENTS CALLING WHEN I'M NOT HOME, NO MORE REPORTING MY EVERY MOVE, NO MORE 6 HOURS PER DAY 4 DAYS A WEEK RULE, NO MORE NOT BEING ALLOWED TO STUDY AT SCHOOL, NO MORE CLEANING MY PARENTS ENTIRE HOUSE EVERY WEEKEND, NO MORE SHUTTLING MY LITTLE BROTHERS AROUND, NO MORE SNEAKING AROUND TO DATE MY BOYFRIEND

and finally... i have a chance to be my own person.

1:03am: update on last post.
i probibally shouldve been more specific.

my family thinks being a teacher is not wise.

i quit kays, took a chance and now i sell cars for jones junction. if i'm good i will make bank :) no one seems to think that was a good idea either.

my boyfriend IS amazing, however i'm catching shit from an "old friend" about how he's a nerd and so "magoo" and so not my type, ect... since when that person felt it was ok to judge the relationships in my life i will never figure out. and honestly, the idea to remain friends was not mine, but the effort to remain friends was on my part and i doubt i'll be making another effort like monday night for some time.

i hope that post makes more sense.... haha but i just reread it and its just as confusing as the first one!

1:17am: honestly, i dont care what anyone has to say or what anyone wants to think about my job choices or my career path or especially my boyfriend. people can just fuck off.

11:24pm: love you girl <3

4:37pm:

How to make a xxzephyrlovexx

Ingredients: 1 part mercy 3 parts brilliance 5 parts energy

Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little lovability if desired!

12:25am: I love emily's new hair!

I'm way excited about my date on saturday!

I love that emily approves of this boy in a much different way than most others.

I hate that saturday is so far away!

I love hanging out at barnes and noble - especially afterhours when guitars are involved.

My new job makes me happy inside. I have grown a new liking for yellow gold. i think it's more timeless. i'd like to buy some, i think.

I hate that emily is leaving so soon.

12:32am: i <3 my new job. i transfered to the kays at whitemarsh mall and i do sales now. i had a goal of 800$ and i sold close to 2000$. Fucking sweet!

11:58pm: i think i need to refine my taste in guys. whatever it is that attracts me to certain people - it needs to change. i wish i could just pinpoint it. if i could i could fix it and i could change it and i could find a guy that won't break up with me b/c he likes me too much. what the hell is that about anyway?! i dunno...

i'vegone on a few dates since brad and i became "unexclusive" and then broke up. the first was an old friend (an exboyfriend.) that one was not so bad but i wasn't really feeling it. the second one was this guy from the navy - loser and huge creep.

i hung out with adam, john, emily, and danny tonight. that was so sweet. i miss hanging out with adam and it was really nice to talk to john again. even though it didn't work between us, he's a great guy and going to make someone really happy one day :)

i'm going tubing with adam, john, and danny tomorrow. should be sweet sweet times!

adam rocks my socks by the way!

8:32pm: so i bought bradley's birthday present. he thinks he's clever and knows what it is. he's never been more wrong..too bad for him.

i "talked" to him today. he said not to worry about him, but i do and i am. he was at the ER last night and each doctor had a different idea of what was wrong with him. i think they just made him worse. stupid doctors. i hope he gets better and can go to Reach. he's going to have to get like 300% better than he is right now. i hope he does get better by the time he goes to Reach... my poor boyfriend...

8:31pm: When the earth was still flat
And clouds made of fire
And mountains stretched up to the sky
Sometimes higher
Folks roamed the earth like big rolling kegs
They had two sets of arms
They had two sets of legs
They had two faces peering
Out of one giant head
So they could watch all around them
As they talked; while they read
And they never knew nothing of love
It was before the origin of love
The origin of love

And there were three sexes then,
One that looked like two men
Glued up back to back
Called the children of the sun
And similiar in shape and girth
Was the children of the earth
They looked like two girls rolled up in one
And the children of the moon
Were like a fork stuck on a spoon
They were part sun, part earth, part daughter, part son
The origin of love

Now the gods grew quite scared
Of our strength and defiance
And Thor said "I'm gonna kill them all with my hammer
Like I killed the giants"
But the Zeus said "No
You better let me use my lightning like scissors
Like I cut the legs off the whales
Dinosaurs into lizards"
Then he grabbed up some bolts
And he let out a laugh
Said "I'll split them right down the middle
Gonna cut them right up in half"
And the storm clouds gathered above
Into great balls of fire.

And then fire shot down from the sky in bolts
Like shining blades of a knife
And it ripped right through the flesh
Of the children of the sun and the moon
And the earth
And some Indian god sewed the wound up
Into a hole
Pulled it 'round to our bellies
To remind us the price we pay
And Osiris and the gods of the nile
Gathered up a big storm
To blow a hurricane
To scatter us away
in a flood of wind and rain
And a sea of tidal waves
To wash us all away
And if we don't behave
They'll cut us down again
We'll be hopping around on one foot
And looking through one eye

Last time I saw you
We just split in two
You was looking at me
I was looking at you
You had a way so familiar
But I could not recognize
'cause you had blood in your face
And I had blood in my eyes
But I could swear by your expression
That the pain down in your soul
Was the same as the one down in mine
That's the pain
That cuts a straight line down through the heart
We call it love
We wrapped our arms around each other
Trying to shove ourselves back together
We were making love
Making love
It was a cold dark evening such a long time ago
When by the mighty hand of Jove
It was a sad story how we became
Lonely two-legged creatures
It's the story
The origin of love
That's the origin of love.

9:17pm: i spent the day with my super sick boyfriend. he definately shouldn't have come out. we went shopping with his mom and his brother at arundel mills (which was way fun!) i just got home and checked his away message and he's gotten more sick then he was and now he's in the emergency room. i'm so so worried about him. i tried to call and get a hold of him but he didnt answer (obviously)

...i just hope he is going to be alright...

<3 feel better sweetheart <3

1:35pm: this day started out good. then, got a little shitty. then got real shitty and i have a feeling the worst is yet to come.

9:24pm:

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Holly
Birthday:	August 25, 1986
Birthplace:	Baltimore
Current Location:	Bel Air
Eye Color:	Blue
Hair Color:	Light Reddish Brown
Height:	5'2"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Sweedish!
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Pink and Wicker Flip Flops
Your Weakness:	Genuine Smiles
Your Fears:	Snakes and Dead Animals
Your Perfect Pizza:	White Pizza w/ Broccoli and Other Veggies
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Getting A Car
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	I Know Right
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Why Aren't You Here?
Your Best Physical Feature:	Eyes
Your Bedtime:	12ish
Your Most Missed Memory:	Ami.
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Einsteins (lol they're fast food!!)
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	Not Anymore
Do you Swear:	Like A Sailor
Do you Sing:	Horribly, But Yes
Do you Shower Daily:	Like It's My Job
Have you Been in Love:	I Think I Am Right Now
Do you want to go to College:	I'm In It Right Now!
Do you want to get Married:	Absolutely
Do you belive in yourself:	I Try To
Do you get Motion Sickness:	No
Do you think you are Attractive:	I Think So
Are you a Health Freak:	No
Do you get along with your Parents:	HaHa... Next Question....
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Love Them
Do you play an Instrument:	Clarinet, Bass Clarinet, and Bass Guitar
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	Yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Yes :)
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Yes If California Rolls Count
In the past month have you been on Stage:	No
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Do Mutual Break-Ups Count?
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No... But That Might Change On Wednesday
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No
Ever been Drunk:	No
Ever been called a Tease:	YES...Like It's My Job
Ever been Beaten up:	No
Ever Shoplifted:	No
How do you want to Die:	Loved
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	A Teacher
What country would you most like to Visit:	Sweeden
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Some Crazy Mix of Green and Brown
Favourite Hair Color:	Brown
Short or Long Hair:	Short
Height:	5'8"ish
Weight:	190ish? I Dont Know....
Best Clothing Style:	Polos and Button Up Shirts Nice Jeans
Number of Drugs I have taken:	...
Number of CDs I own:	Like 40?
Number of Piercings:	2
Number of Tattoos:	That You'd Have To Ask Me In Person
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	A Few
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

5:50pm: so the other day someone asked me what was the sweetest thing a guy has ever done for me. i gave some cop out answer like flowers (dont get me wrong i absolutely adore them, but they are top-able) today and what was left in my car totally was one of the sweetest things anyone has ever done for me :)

you always know how to stop me dead in my tracks... blow me away... make me forget my name... the whole nine yards...

1:53pm: Since Bethany Called Me Out...
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Holly
2. Hollipop
3. Hardcore Holly (love you em)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. sundragon04
2. xxzephyrlovexx
3. xbass4lifex - like the guitar not the fish lol

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. I'm smart but i play dumb well
2. I'm pretty positive
3. I can make the boy smile when he's blue :)

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. I cant be myself at home
2. I'm so friggin pale!
3. I piss people off

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Sweedish
2. umm...?
3. ...i...dunno....

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Being unsuccessful
2. Being broke my entire life
3. People hating me

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. the boy :)
2. a reason to leave the house
3. someone to play with me

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. Pink spaghetti strap shirt
2. jeans
3. a bra and a thong

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS
1. RHCP
2. The Killers
3. Maroon 5

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS(at the moment)
1. "Beautiful Soul"
2. "Wonderwall"
3. "Boulevard of Broken Dreams"

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Getting a car
2. Getting a better job
3. Being a better friend

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. someone who respects and loves me for who i am
2. Trust
3. Silliness

TWO TRUTHS AND A HALF-LIE (in no particular order)
1. I love my job
2. I get payed BANK
3. I'm seeing someone i'm not allowed to talk about to the people i work with

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. Muscular arms
2. Eyes
3. A real smile

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. Seeing the boy... thts a hobby, right?
2. SOFTBALL
3. IF I had money I'd totally be into crafts lol

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. Be with you...
2. Have youre mother like me!
3. walk outside and have a working car!

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING
1. 1st
2. grade
3. teacher

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. Sweeden
2. Alameda
3. Cape May

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Have enough money to live comfortably
2. Have children... adopt if i can afford it
3. Fall in love with "the one"

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A CHICK (...)
1. I work in a jewelrey store
2. I love dressing up
3. The way i run

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A DUDE
1. I'm not caddy
2. I'd rather mess around w/ you than learn your name? (just kidding!)
3. I get along with guys and check out girls

THREE CELEB CRUSHES
1. Russel Crowe
2. Mariska Hartigay (the chick from law and order)
3. Matt Le Blanc

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
Amy
Emily
Dom

8:09pm: Math homework and cleaning are driving me absolutely insaine!! someone hit up the cell and talk to me!

410.937.3524

<3

8:07pm: I went up to PA last night

12:45pm: John and i broke up which is sad but was mutual. i'd be lying if i said i didnt miss him though... he's a great guy.

i hung out - road tripped - with brad and ken last night. sex w. a midget? thats what she said.

7:28pm: does anyone know where i can get a cheap automobile?

11:43pm: Have You Ever...?
Have you ever...

(x) smoked a cigarette
(_) smoked a cigar
(x) smoked anything else
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car


(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(_) shoplifted
(_) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight


(_) snuck out of parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(_) been arrested
(_) made out with a stranger
(_) gone on a blind date


(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
(X) slept with a co-worker
(_) seen someone die


(_) had/have a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends
(_) been to Canada
(_) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
(_) thrown up in a bar


(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding/skiing
(_) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(x) been moshing at a concert


(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel


(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x)played dress up


(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(_) fallen asleep at work/school


(_) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set
(_) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake


(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(_) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat


(x) won a contest
(_) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x) been in a car accident


(x) had braces
(_) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight


(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(_)(jokingly) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(_)been obsessed with post-it notes


(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying


(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(_) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins


(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain


(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
(_) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(_) made a bonfire on the beach


(_) crashed a party
(_) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
(_) humped a monkey(lmao omg thats freakin weird)


(_) worn pearls
(_) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed "penis" in class
(_) ate dog food
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them


(x) sang in the shower
(_)have a little black dress
(_) fucked in a park
(x) fucked in the bathoom
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something


(_) got your toungue stuck to a pole
(_) kissed a fish
(x)worn the opposite sexes clothes
(_) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top


(_) had sex at a church
(X) screamed at the top of your lungs
(_) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
(_) didnt take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
(X) are scared to watch scary movies alone


(x) believe in ghosts
(_) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school
(_) gone streaking
(_) played ding-dong-ditch

(x) played chicken fight
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused


(x) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed


(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name


(_) slept naked
(_) French braided someones hair
(_) gone skinny dippin in a pool
(_) been kicked out of your house